Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Everything Birth

As we prepare for the new member of our family, I get to discover all the new products out there! What fun! There is only a six year gap between the youngest and our new baby, but there are many new advances over the last six years.

Even though this is our 4th child, this is our first reversal baby. That means that this is the first baby we have carried since my tubal reversal surgery. I will share with you our journey.

I have to admit that the first two children were not planned, but wonderful surprises . . . that we weren't quite ready for. I got pregnant again when my son was about 8 months old. Wow! I didn't know if I could handle all that! About 17 weeks into that pregnancy I had a missed miscarriage. That means there wasn't a baby. My body formed a pregnancy sac and was preparing for pregnancy, but the baby never formed. The guilt that built up after that was difficult. We waited three months like the doc told us to and then tried again. I got pregnant right away but miscarried at 5 weeks. Without my next cycle, I discovered that I was pregnant again. This was a time full of mixed emotions. Most of us get excited when we see the two pink lines, but mine was mixed with fear and doubt.

At about 10-12 weeks I went to the doc to hear if the baby had a heartbeat or not. I felt good and was happy I had made it this far, but I still was not freed from worry. We lived about 1 1/2 hours from the doc's office. I developed a migraine headache that morning and threw up every hour for about 4 hours. It wasn't until after I heard the heartbeat of that precious life that my headache started to subside and I was able to eat again. That little heartbeat is now my beautiful 5 year old daughter.

Overwhelmed with the previous years of emotions, we decided that three children was enough and we scheduled a tubal ligation. Everyone supported our decision as "three is more than enough children." I was 23 years old at the time.

I was comfortable with my decision for a couple of years, but then the Lord began to do an amazing work in me and my husband. We were denying the gifts God wanted to give us. He had given us a desire to raise more children for His glory. We studied and researched tubal reversal surgery and physicians. We even had the opportunity to go with a friend to have hers reversed. After several years we chose a doctor, but now needed the funds. With the sell of our house we scheduled surgery in September 2006 - 4 years (almost to the day) after my tubal ligation.

We impatiently waited the suggested two months and then got pregnant immediately. Only to discover it was ectopic. The Lord protected my womb and the ectopic pregnancy dissolved on its own. I went almost a whole year with no pregnancies. I was to the point of hopelessness. Obviously the Lord did not want us to have more children yet. In September of 2007 I became pregnant again and miscarried at 5 weeks. But no ectopic which meant my tubes were open!! I was a little more excited, but didn't want to get my hopes up. Again without having another cycle, I found I was pregnant. I immediately called upon my friends for prayer over this new life.

Now 30 weeks pregnant with a healthy, active little girl I am excited to say the Lord has provided! It has been quite an adventure! Now that this baby is almost here I am hurrying to collect everything I need (want) to care for her. You see, after the tubal ligation I gave away all of my baby things. So in a sense, this is my first baby. I am having to start fresh, which is fun. But I didn't remember how much stuff you can gather for one tiny life!

In this process I discovered Everything Birth . What cool things they have for those of us wanting to provide our babies with natural products. Check it out and by clicking on the gift registry you can see what I still need. (Hint . . . hint!) LOL.

1 comment:

Tamara said...

What a great story, Felicia! I'm so proud of you for following God's leading and being open to more kiddos. You go girl! It takes a lot of guts to go against the flow!